Wednesday, November 12, 2014

~ It Is Now ...

4 months
123 days
17 weeks
2,952 hours
177,120 minutes
10,627,200 seconds
since Tom died.
 
I still visit your blogs.
 I just haven't had the energy to post lately.
 
I am struggling to get back control of my life.
I am still consumed with grief.
Every.Single.Day.
Some days are worse than the next.
I just never know when the grief will be mild
or when it will explode from within me.
I am a walking grief bomb.
I am a whirlwind of emotions.
 
Sometimes I regret having moved from our home of 30 years.
I'm still not feeling his presence here with me in the condo.
 
I hear that "time will heal" ....
I just don't know when that time will come.
 
For now I will grieve.
Every.Single.Day.