... today is Tom's birthday.
I miss him.
I bought a cupcake for him.
I lit the candle.
I sang "Happy Birthday".
And then I cried.
Happy Birthday Tom.
I love you.
The other day we had another snowstorm.
I've lost count on how many storms we have had.
I made myself a cup of coffee and was heading towards the window
to watch it snow.
I thought I saw a red leaf in the tree right outside my window.
As I got closer, I realized it wasn't a leaf at all ....
... it was a cardinal.
I was thrilled to have spotted it.
I ran to grab my camera and prayed that he would still be there when I returned.
He was.
He had his back to me and I began talking to him ....
"turn around .... let me see your face."
He turned his head slightly ... as if he actually heard me.
I continued speaking to him ...
asking him to let me see his face.
I was so afraid he'd fly off without letting me see his face.
And then ...
... he turned around.
I was thrilled!
And then I stepped back ...
... I got a funny feeling that I can't explain.
I put my camera down and just watched him
until he flew off.
They say that seeing a cardinal is a sign from
a loved one who has died
letting you know that they are in the afterlife.
That funny feeling I got ....
... a sign?
You tell me.
You give me good bumps with stories. Happy Birthday Tom-you are giving D the best gift-your presence. D-these photos are just beautiful. Xo
ReplyDeleteCardinals were my MIL's favorite bird. Every time I see one in our yard, I know it's a sign! Beautiful words and pix for Tom!..::)JP
ReplyDeleteOh my, goose bumps running up my arms. Happy Birthday to your Tom.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday to Tom - such a beautiful cupcake and wow, the beauty of the cardinal in the tree. Blessings!
ReplyDeleteTotally a sign! Such a blessing.
ReplyDeleteI know he is always with you, Diane. xo.
ReplyDeleteYou make tear up every time.
ReplyDeleteWhat a dear soul you are.
I am certain he is keeping you company.
Your cardinal photos are lovely.Lovely.
Take care.
Oh my dear, happy birthday to your love and what a gift the cardinal brought!!
ReplyDeletehow cool is that. :)
ReplyDeleteI totally believe it was a sign.
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs~
What beautiful pictures and such an amazing moment.
ReplyDeleteGrab on to that sign, hold it in your heart, believe in it and feel thankful for the gift!
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely beautiful photos . . .
No doubt in my mind~ This was a beautiful sign~ I am a believer and I am so happy you talked to the red leaf :D
ReplyDeleteSuch a lovely post-thank you for sharing~ @>--------------------
Oh yes, it definitely was a sign! Happy Birthday to your precious Tom. xoxo
ReplyDeleteHi Diane! So very sorry for your loss. Seems like so many blog friends are going through this right now. I will keep you in my prayers.
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Blessings,
My heart breaks for you. I don't know how you found the strength to do your husband's birthday celebration. I don't think I can bear to ever do any celebrating again. I lost my husband on Dec. 26 after a long battle with pancreatic cancer. I look for signs from him and try to feel his presence. Nothing. Abandonment and pain. Life seems pointless now.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on winning the lovely giveaway by Wayside Treasures. And I am glad that you got a visit from a beautiful cardinal to cheer your day.
Oh my goodness dearest Diane, I'm so sorry for your loss. I cried while reading your posts. I totally believe the sweet patient little cardinal was a sign. A beautiful sign. Take care dear. Sending you love and hugs ~ Wendy of Apple and Apricot
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful post. I love that you are seeing "signs" like this. They really can help you to heal. The last shot comparison was delightful. Cardinals are gorgeous birds and I'm so glad this one turned around for you.
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful post this is! And what a gift to have a word from your love. Big hugs to you
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