~ Love Letters . . .

. . . and memories.
Tom and I were not very big on celebrating Valentine's Day.
We always felt that we showed and shared plenty of love throughout the year.

No dinners to fancy restaurants.
No elaborate gifts to each other.

Just love.

Plain and simple.

Throughout the year we wrote love letters to each other.
Yes, we did!
Pretty much every single day.

 

Sometimes the love letters were a page long.

Sometimes they were on sticky notes.

 

When I was working, I was up and out of the house before he was.
I'd leave a love letter in his coffee cup.
When I'd get home from work before him,

there would be a love letter waiting for me.

 

When he would go on business trips I would pack love letters with his clothes.
He would find them in his shirt pockets.
In his suit jacket pockets.
In his rolled up socks.

In his trouser pockets.
And I'd find one under my pillow from him.

 

When I stopped working and he worked from home,

the love letters didn't stop.
We'd each find sticky notes with "I Love You" written on them.

Sticky notes everywhere.

I miss the love letters.
I wish I had kept them.
But I have the memories.

The memories of a love that will never die.

One day, about 2 weeks after Tom died,
I was looking for some paperwork that I would need
to bring to Probate Court.
I couldn't find the paperwork.
In my frustration and my grief I just sat on the floor
and cried my eyes out.
An envelope full of old receipts fell from one of the shelves.
Stuck to it was one of Tom's love letters to me.
Gosh, this was written at least 8 years ago when I was still working.
From the sounds of the letter, it was a tough weekend.
He had probably been taken to the hospital from experiencing
heart failure.

The letter goes:
"Good morning,
It sure was a long weekend. 
I prefer they were a little easier.
I'm sure glad that I have you!!
You make me want to go on so we can have a long life in retirement together.
I appreciate all of your support and most important your love.
I want you to realize that I really do love you
and I have loved you all my life.
You are all of my being.
I don't know what I would do without you.
I really believe my health will be fine
and all the bad stuff is behind us.
I will really try to get better.
Know I love you.
Hope your day goes by fast.
I will be looking forward to you coming home.
I love you 3 whole bunches.
Love,
Tom"

OMG, I love that man.
I'm still in love with him.

Thank you Tom for loving me

and giving me so many wonderful memories.

You truly are my "once in a lifetime"

and my "happily ever after."

 

Happy Valentine's Day!