Friday, October 25, 2013

~ Happy Birthday ...

.... to my baby.
My son .... my baby .... will be 38 tomorrow (October 26th).
Thirty-eight!!!!  How the heck did that happen?
Where have the years gone?
1.  Here is his birth announcement. 
We spotted it while shopping one day but I didn't want to buy it yet.
We didn't know what we were having and although we both secretly
hoped for a boy
we didn't want to jinx it by buying it ahead of time.
So, after Keith was born and we were settled in our room for the night
my husband went out and drove 45 minutes away to buy
the announcements.
What a guy!!!
2.  My water broke while we were at a Halloween Party.
Yes, I was in costume.
I was dressed as a nun.
3.  Labor didn't start right away.  It felt like it took forever.
In fact, it was taking its sweet time so much that they decided
to wheel me up to my room to wait around up there.
Once in my room I announced I had to pee.
I tinkled and labor started immediately.
It started up so fast and furious that the nurse thought I was kidding.
She checked. 
Baby was crowning.
They plop me on a gurney and they are speeding down the hall ...
into the elevator ... down another hall ... 
and to the delivery room.
Just in time!
4.  Once in the delivery room it was a blink or two and ....
... this little guy was born!
Labor started at 10:30 a.m. ...
Keith was born at 11:59 a.m!!!
5.  Giving birth is quite the experience.
The range of emotions you go through during and after
is beyond description.
The same goes for motherhood.
It's an emotional occupation.
I worry that I haven't been the best mother that I could have been.
I still worry about him ....
is he okay?  Is he safe?  Is he healthy?
I can't take him by the hand anymore
and steer him away from things that aren't good.
He's a grown man.
He has his own life .... his own choices .... his own decisions.
Happy Birthday, Keith!
Played along with Nancy and  Random 5 Friday

Friday, October 18, 2013

~ Let's Meditate .....

... and I found the perfect spot to do this.

I was out and about ... just me and my "friend" ... and came across this porch.
It looked so inviting ... so peaceful.
I thought "What a great place to just sit and meditate."
It even has the items used for meditation tucked in the corner.
How convenient!
So, let's quietly head onto the porch and grab a chair and sit and meditate on our
Random 5 Friday!

1.  I had a much better week.  I am coming down from my pity party and ...
well ... I am starting to think about my lessons learned from this lost friendship.
And there are a few many.  But I won't get into them now.

"The moment you feel like you have to prove your worth to someone
is the moment to absolutely and utterly walk away."
~ Alysia Harris

2.  I had my physical on Wednesday ... my annual "look under the hood".
Physically, I am doing well ... for my age (snort!).
I had a Bone Density Scan and Doc says I have
a very very very mild case of osteoporosis ... nothing to worry about ...
right now.
So, I have to stock up on yogurt ... discipline myself to take my calcium pills ...
and sadly I will have to put away my stripper pole.
Can't take a chance of falling off it and breaking a bone.
Just kidding!!! 
I did speak to Doc about my state of mind ... and with winter just around the corner
(brrrrrr......shiver me timbers!) I wasn't sure if last season's
sadness was just a fluke or if I really do have SAD.
So, we decided to go forward with medication on a trial basis.
I'm fine with that.
If it works ... yippee!!!
If it doesn't ... well, we'll discuss that if we get there.

"Eat healthily, sleep well, breathe deeply, move harmoniously."
~ Jean Pierre Barrel

3.  Isn't October a beautiful month?
Absofrigginlutely beautiful.
Its crispness.  Its colors.  Its smells.  Its sounds.

"There is no season when such pleasant and sunny spots may be lighted on
and produce so pleasant an effect on the feelings as October."
~ Nathaniel Hawthorne

4.  October is Breast Cancer Awareness month.
Most of us probably know someone who has battled/is battling with this monster.
I had been neglecting getting a yearly mammogram.
The last time I had one was ... ummmm ... about 8 years ago!
But this year I decided to stop being a wimp and git 'er done!
I did.
I'm fine.
So, get out there and get those ta-tas squished ... it only smarts for a second.

"When life kicks you, let it kick you forward."
~ Kay Yow

5.  I need to get my groove back. 
I need to start picking up the things that I used to enjoy.
Reading.  Photography.  Knitting.  Crocheting.  Crafting.
I need to pull out all of my craft paraphernalia and give myself
a shot in the arm and just craft my little butt off.
Stop stressing.  Start crafting.
Yup!  Imma gonna do that.

"Give your stress wings and let it fly away." ~ Terri Guillemets

Alrighty then!
Let's start meditating ...



Friday, October 11, 2013

~ We Meet Again ....

Gonna do it up a little differently today.
Starting with the bottom ....
5.   Yup!  I changed up my blog look ... again!
I wanted to give it a little "Halloween" look.  Did I succeed? 
Don't worry ... it'll change again next month.
To what?  Hhhmmmmm......Not sure.
Why can't I just find something I like and just stick with it? 
4.   I am seeing birds around my feeder less and less as the weather
gets cooler and cooler.
I may just keep the feeder out through the winter just in case a fine feathered
friend decides to stop by for a little snack.
3.  Dear Blogging Friends ...  I want to thank all of you for your wonderful support
during my lost friendship last week.   Wow!
I received so many lovely comments and e-mails.  I was overwhelmed!
Having the door closed on one friendship led me back to a friend
that I had been neglecting for too long.
This friend is there whenever I need a friend.
I can push this friend's buttons and this friend doesn't get upset
and shut me out.   Nope!
This friend lets me make mistakes.  Yup!
Say hello to my little friend ....
2.  My "friend" and I took advantage of a gorgeous day and headed out the door.
I grabbed some props and looked for the perfect spot.
As I put the items down on the ground and was changing the settings on the camera,
I accidentally clicked the button and ....
took this....
... and I did  not notice the visiting Mr.DaddyLongLegs until I looked at the shot on the computer!
I just love it when stuff like that happens!!!
1.  This one is for Kelly. 
We've been cyber friends for a few years now.
We've never met in person.  We will......someday.
Kelly has been having a really tough year.  Really tough.
To add to her burden, she just found out her Mother has cancer.
 Please visit Kelly and give her hugs.
Dear Kelly,
Saying "I'm sorry" just doesn't seem like enough.
I wish I could do or say more to help you through this difficult time.
I wish I could find Aladdin's Lamp and wish away all of the pain and sorrow
that you are facing.
Know that I am here for you .... always.
Text me anytime.
Call me if you ever want to talk or scream....I'll listen.
And if the pain is too strong ... and you can't talk ... or scream ... but can only cry
then FaceTime me.
I'll put the phone on my shoulder
and let you cry on it
for as long as you need.

Friday, October 4, 2013

~ A Question....A Comment....

.... injured a friendship.
I am still in disbelief.
I have been crying off and on since yesterday.
I have read and re-read the email at least a dozen times.
I am confused.  I am hurt.
Shouldn't we be able to say pretty much anything to a true friend?
Not a hurtful thing .... but an opinion?
A thought?
A "this is how I felt" comment?
I said these things to open the door for more conversation about what happened.
NOT to close it.
She said I closed it.   I didn't.
My door is still open.
"Where do they go,
the people who sail into our lives
like green leaves
and disappear like snow." ~ Rod McKuen
1.'s been a tough couple of days.
I lost a good friend....a best friend. 
It doesn't matter who was right ... or who was wrong.
The door has been closed to that friendship
over something that happened six months ago!!!!
Over a comment about how I felt at that time.
Over being honest.
I have been crying all day. 
I have that "ugly cry" look.  
It is not flattering.
2.  I'd call my friend  ex-friend
but I'll only cry and won't be able to say a single word coherently.
3.  I wonder if she knows how hurt I am?
I wonder if she is as hurt as I am?
How can a friendship that I thought was so deep just dissolve
over .... what???  Seriously, what???
I want to roll up my sleeves and talk it out.
She has opted to "go our separate ways". 
4.  Is this friendship even fixable? 
"If the other person in the friendship is worth it,
then the broken friendship can be fixed,
no matter what." ~ Anonymous
Is that true?
I just don't know.
What I do know is that I am Hurting.Like.Hell right now.
I go from sad to angry to sad to angry......
5.  She blames me for "closing the door" on the friendship but to me
she slammed it shut.

It's sad when people you know
become people you knew.

Crying my eyes out over at Nancy's