Thursday, July 10, 2014

~ Dear ...

.... life.
WTF?
You are pissing me off with everything that you are throwing at Tom.
 
Tom isn't doing very well.
He was doing "okay" for a while and now he's not.
 
 
He has started sleeping 95% of the time.
He doesn't want to eat.
When he is awake, one minute he is coherent and then he drifts off and then the
next minute he is confused and lost. 
 
I am so effin' scared.  And sad.  And angry.
I cry ALL.THE.TIME
 
I tell him over and over and over and over and over and over
that I love him infinitely.
He says he loves me, too.
 
 
I can't stop touching his strong hands.
I want to hold onto them forever.
These hands took care of me.  Soothed me. 
Wiped my tears.  Comforted me. 
 
I want to make sure that he feels my touch as often as possible.
 
 
I don't ever want to let go.
Ever.
 


8 comments:

  1. Challenge . . This is a BIG ONE . . . wishing i could send strength and comfort -
    Love & Love to You,
    -g-

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  2. You are so brave.
    I am so sorry that you have to bear this.
    I'll be going to sleep thinking about you both.

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  3. My heart hurts for you. I can't imagine. I think it's good for you to express it, get it out, scream it out. I have no pat answers. I've been through the sickness of my parents, friends, a brother, family, but never my husband or children, not this kind anyway. Prayers that God will hold you close in His arms and give you comfort. He's big enough to take your anger too. Thanks for dropping by my blog. Because of that I dropped by yours. I'm glad I did because your heart touched mine.

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  4. I am so sorry. It must be almost unbearable to go through this with some one you love.

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  5. This absolutely brought me to tears D. My heart aches for you both. I hope you know I think of you everyday...often...so often you probably think i'm stalking you! xo love ya sis

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  6. Oh my God - I want so badly to reach through this screen and give you a hug and give you some words of wisdom - or even better - magic. {{hugs}} Just remember, you do not have to handle it all - take help and guidance when and from wherever you need.

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  7. {{{hugs}}} and prayers for strength to endure and face each day & all that it holds in it.

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